December,
24 2004
Hi to everyone,
It has been awhile since I posted a win. I have
achieved a huge win which is more than I could have conceived of
just a few months ago.
In late August of this year, my life had become
so unbearable that I had decided to end my life as I knew it. I
don't mean suicide although that thought had crossed my mind before
but I had a plan. A terrible, horrible plan but a plan nonetheless.
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I had been in legal disputes with my ex wife for
four years. We had cases in four courts. County court, District
court, Appellate court and Federal BK court. At one point I was
in 16 cases at the same time and had no lawyer as I did it all
pro se. I know it's hard to believe that I had 16 cases on at the
same time but that is the truth and that is how much of a mess
I was in.
The crux of the matter was my two children, Christian
is now 6 and Olivia is now 10. Two loving caring children that
at times were so afraid of what was happening with their parents
that they would shut down. They wouldn't become unruly but they
would withdraw and then would have social problems at school and
kindergarten.
I have always had my children the majority of the
time and it had become unbearable as I couldn't drive without being
arrested (which even happened while the children were with me)
in a town that has no public transport - not even a taxi. I live
3 miles out of town. I couldn't work to my full capacity because
of the mess I was in. At times I couldn't work at all. I couldn't
think, concentrate or even plan the simplest of tasks.
A few years prior to all this I was running my own
construction company and turned over millions in a year and earned
a decent living. The divorce and resulting actions with regards
to my children (they being used as the excuse anyway) had turned
me into a bum. I was soon to be on the street, no income, no hope,
all washed up and life had nothing to offer me any longer.
So ...... one fine day in late August I sat at my
computer and as I had taught myself much about the law and what
was possible I had decided to steal an identity. Not just a social
security number and a fake name - no. What I planned to do was
steal the identity of an infant, any male infant, that had died
in the early 1960's and use that social security number, name and
all other associated things such as credit scores etc. Hideous
I know, but that was what I was doing.
Once into the Google site I punched in a few key
words to find what I was looking for. I knew the information was
there as I had seen it before and I knew I wanted a fresh start.
Finding this information would be a snap and I would be out of
all this mess. Well, I might be out of this mess but probably not.
I didn't have anything to lose at that point.
Key words ......... new identity, fresh start, clean slate.
Does anyone know how many knowledgism pages pop
up from the key words of 'clean slate'??
Well, this pesky knowledgism stuff kept popping
up and distracting me from the hideous task I was about to undertake
but a few sentences managed to get my attention. As I was totally
alone, no kids, no renter in the apartment, there was no harm in
me reading further. Nobody would know what I was reading. Perhaps
i could read just a little more. Maybe just for a little while
longer.
Somewhere between 6 and 8 hours of reading later
I called the ranch and spoke to Jolee.
My posts since then reflect the power of even just reading some of Alan's books
and I never did gain a new identity (not in the way I was going to) and in
fact, I have managed to rid myself of some since then.
I have my house back now. The house I built at the
base of Mt, Crested Butte that backs onto the 17th tee of the country
club and has private fishing for trout and salmon in the Slate
River and has 360 degree views of towering mountains and valleys.
Getting the house back would not help me if I was still in court
though.
Two people that made each other the tiniest of dots
by hateful actions and thoughts had no hope of any peace. No hope
at all, after years of litigation and setting each other up for
failure. Two people that blamed each other for all the hurt and
anger and continued to make themselves right by making more hurt
and anger. A passionate hate towards each other made breathing
a task on it's own.
Until I read Alan's books, had processing from Barbara,
went to the ranch twice, completed the basis of processing course,
started the VF's and started to be at cause over my life I could
not see any solution.
Yesterday afternoon my ex wife and I signed an agreement
that closed all court actions and freed each other from further
litigation's.
Knowledgism propelled me from the gutter back to
peace, peace for my ex wife and peace and happiness for two wonderful
children.
It really only took a matter of weeks and it is
done.
I am typing this with tears of happiness in my eyes.
This Christmas will not be forgotten.
To all of you that have helped me I deeply thank
you.
To all of you that read this I wish you the best for this Christmas and a wonderful
2005.
God Bless,
Gordon
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